BUgis...

life would be foreva incomplete wifout frens..
treasure dem..

yours truly...

this is my life.. my ciggies!!

anoder one impt ting in my life.. my precious hp!!

7 years of frenship.. n still counting...

3 years of frenship...

daaa....

reminisce

im crying rite now..
after reading an entry from "adorable" syahida's blog

reminisce dose daes we had togeder..
hw i wish i could turn bek time..
n experience dose daes again..
laughing.. gigling..
its been such a great moment in my life..
n i wun be able to forget every single ting we did..

i feel so alone..
maybe im juz used to see u guys every single dae..
n rite now..
not being able to meet
makes me realise..
both of u makes a great impact in my life..

rememba dose daes..
wen we juz cried in front of each other..
we juz never fail to juz hug among ourselves..
telling dat everything would juz b fine..

n we juz cnt stop thinking of plans..
plans on wat we shld do during our holidaes..
sum came thru.. but sum dun..

going to zoo.. chalet..sheesha..
its been wonderful...

rite at this very moment..
i hate getting out of this house..
wif nth to look forward to..
juz going to werk..
heving lots of thoughts in my mind..
wif noone to share wif..

goosh.. i realie mish u guys!!

life

my life had been soo chaotic
everydae single dae im overloaded wif things to do...
werk werk werk..
everydae werk..
n if deres one dae off..
i'll spend dose precious time wif my gfs..

hw i wish...
scientist would invent a machine..
an anti-busy machine..
i'll b more den hepi to buy it!!

but sumhow or rather..
being busy hev its advantages fer me..
not being able to think of him..
watsmore.. daydreaming bout him
but still missing him is an essential ting in my mind..
haiz..
nvm..

meeting up gfs..
had been so crucial in my life..
wifout dem..
i'll suffocate to death..
u mite tink i am exaggerating..
but im not..
they're alwaes been der wen i nid dem...
listening to my neverending problems..
never eva failed to lite up my life..
wif dose lame n funny jokes...
thnkiu sooo much fer being a fren..

heartbreak.. again??

LOVE..
is such a DYNAMIC feeling...
perceiving love is so exquisite...
wen ure in this ting called enchantment..
u felt so perfect of urself..

dinstinctively..

HEARTBREAK...
which is torture to ur heart...
remorse..despair..torment..
dose heartsickness u hev to go thru...
gonna make such a hell to ur life..

people would alwaes fancy choosing the first option...
but they'll nvr noe..
they would or surely will suffer from HURTINGS..
which sum of dem will end up being not in love anymore..
to halt demselves from getting hurt..
or maybe trying to resuscitate their dying heart...

but deres also a dinstinct no. of pple..
hu would gif demself a favour of being in love again..
n again dey would get thru hurtings..
till dey get the love of their life..
who would eventualie get married wif n live hepillie eva after...

so this hurting n love thingy..
its a big cycle..
depend on fate...
whether its a big cycle or small cycle..
big cycle: u hev to go thru numerous heartbreaks
n being in love dozens of time..
before u get ur prince charming..
or the small cycle.. which u hev to go thru countable heartbreak...
which u cn easily bare wif dat small wound in ur heart
dats probably healed by mths..

so here is a piece of advice from yours truly..

wen ure in love..

cherish every single moments u hev..

be it happy.. be it saddening..

be grateful dat ure in love..

n being loved is such a phenomenal feeling...

wen others suffers from heartbreaks..

how i aspire to be soo beautiful..

dat wen u lost somebody...

the next minute u'll hev someone else..

wif a snap of my fingers..

but no..

ive this uninviting look..

unsightly body figure..

which no one in this world would wana go out wif me...

which is a total disaster in my life...

haiz.. i feel amiss...

blue

depressed.. dejected.. melancholy.. despondent..
dose feelings i experienced dese few daes..
i dunnoe y...
maybe due to my PMS which im experiencing rite now...
its so typical me to be so much sentimental during dose time of the month..
i guezz all woman go thru dese... rite???
sumtimes its juz so insuppressible...
dat we tend(i mean me) to break down n cry... fer no reason at all..
or perhaps dose problems in mind expressly arise...

n last two daes.. i had a short n simple conversation wif him...
me: assalammualaikum..
him:ws..
me: uat pe??
him; oh keje.. main guitar.. dh lame sey tk maen guitar..
me: oo.. tkde lagu baru ke?? bole dgr..
him: ader.. tapi blum abez uat..(guitar strumming) hmm.. mane bf??
me:oo.. dh meninggal(gone.. he noes wat i meant)...
him:ler asl plakz???.. ekh eqa.. tkmo kol2 uh.. nanti my mem mengamuk.. nanti u kene marah...
me: ekh org kol once a month jer pe.. dier marah pun its not my problem wat...
him; ader je kau.. amacam dh kurus??(seela.. still cn joke ard)
me:(as usual my ans) dhlah.. sexy uh!!
him:kla.. bye
me:bye

as soon as we ended dat short 5 mins conversation.. i was
sooo
soo
soo
feel like crying..
if only she nvr came into his life..
maybe i would be sitting in his arms...
smelling his adidas deodorant all nite..
listening to him sing..
i mish him so much...

happy birthday jannah

1st april 2007..
HAPPY BIRTHDAE TO U...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U...
HAPPY BIRTHDAE TO NUR JANNAH ANZARI...
HAPPY BIRTHDAE TO U...
YEAYYY!!!

as usual.. every birthdae occasions...
surely kak su would plan sum kind of outing fer us...
n tis time...
we go makan at fish n co...
suposedly we hev to mit at 530 in front of bugis fish n co..
but.. urs truly was late...
cuz i had to take cake fer the bdae gurl in tamp..
had to rush der... so managed to take a cab...
reached der ard 6.. n they were already inside..
but lucky me.. the bdae gurl haven reached yet...
everything went smoothly...

den kak su n abg amat headed home...
while the four of us...
went to watch movie at marina..
BECAUSE I SAID SO...
it was a nice movie..
veri veri suweet... we all love it...
but not lydia.. guezz wat shes doing in the cinema..
she slept!!! haha....
snored sumore... ayoh...
den ard 12 plus.. headed home..

*your truly*

self indulgence

again..

n again...
jannah n lydia's share
me n sya's yummilicious fish n chips...
humongous drinks fer the april babies...
jan sutting dat nutella cake...
me wif cardigan
n me.. wifout.. so which is betta???
jan.. opps.. ur ****** getting bigger uh.. hehe
the lovely three of us... n the sibuk fingers is lydia's
the two preety ladies.. hhahascary syahida
slenge jannah
too big fer u uh...

presenting... the three ladies... or i mite sae... the three monkeys...

n me.. waiting fer my knight wif shining armour to bring me home...

to jan...
hepi bdae to u..
n again hope u would b blessed wif all the happpiness in this world...
n hopefullie one dae..
u would fine ur perfect man..
dat would take u away from ur saddening past...
n den.. u would be smiling all the wae... n even belief dat tears doesnt exists...
hehe.. yeay.. dreams...
but dreams do cum thru... insyallah urs would...
once again hepi bdae!!!!