sorie...

elo again...
u guys rememba??
der was one time i told u guys dat i get to noe this
particular guy aft a huge heartbreak??
yeap..
he still contacting me..
in fact we started to go out on dates....
its not dat i had totalie forgotten abt my past...
but i try to give myself a chance to love n be loved again...
im trying real hard to move on...

but sumtymes...
tinking of my past juz makes me step bek..
ok.. this guy im dating..
lets kol him R
he is such a swit guy...
hu nvr eva failed to msg me once he wakes up to wish me a good morning...
hu nvr failed to kol me up n asked hows my day...
n nvr a single dae.. he would 4get sae I LOVE U...

dat short but so meaningful werds..
apparantly its real hard fer me to actualie say it bek to him..
i realie dunnoe wats holding me bek..
maybe its too soon..
or maybe my heart juz nid more time to heal...
only god noes..

4 now.. i do like him..
but love??
i guezz time will tell...
its not hes not good looking or wat...
hes pleasant looking...
but my heart juz not able to to accept anyone at tiz particular moment...
n at the same time..
i dun wana gif him such high hopes...
and apparently left him hanging all alone...
n i truly dun want dat to hapen to him...
cuz i definitely noes hw it feels...
i do appreciate every single ting dat he did 4 me...

n to R..
i noe u would b reading tis...
i realie hope u undastan how i feels..
i noe ive told u tis..
n u willingly sae u wana wait fer me...
n i dun wana force u to 4get me or anything..
cuz i do want to move on..
but i cnt...
gif me time... :,(


aniwae.. ders sum pixies i totalie 4get to update....
pixies i took on the last dae
on my attachment..
dey r definitely a great bunch of frens..
gona mish werking togeder wif dem..

update...

i noe i noe..
its quite sum time since i blog..
its not dat im too busy..
its not dat my comp's sick..
its juz dat im too lazy.. hehe...

i've been heving fever fer the past two daes...
migraines were totallie uncontrollable...
phlegm were gross!!!
runny nose were so damn irritating!!
i were in bed 24 hrs...
its was definitely irritating....

ok!! i hev an announcement to make!!
listen uh!!
i wana officiallie declared myself as...
BANKRUPT!!!
yeah...
its not even 25th.. n my bank acc is clean....
oh money... please come to me...

n me..
wif nth to do at home..
looking ard at old pixies in my dad cam..
n found some pixies to upload..
since ive nvr updated fer soo long..
here r sum of the pixies i found...
me n my gorgeous mum


me my dad n his boys..
dats all uh...
tata...

lydia's bdae!!

hepi belated bdae lydia!!!
yesterdae outing was so so much fun..
although it was a short outing wif kak su.. syahida.. lydia.. jannah..
but its gonna b a memorable one..

me n jan... i look fat.. i noe..

sya n me..

us again!!
me...
our slim kak su!! n me..
kak su n syahida

our plan is..
to mit everyone at city hall at 4pm..
but due to my busy schedule..
me n syahida haven bought a single thing fer my dearest lydia..
so we met at tamp mall at 1 pm..
n dat adorable syahida.. as usual.. LATE!!
i told u.. im alwaes punctual..
n met kak su first..
i get to hug kak su!! i mish her... hehe..
after walking ard n after much discussion..
we bought her presents!!!

so we headed to city hall..
went to raffles city coz kak su wana buy a gift voucher fer her..
addidas gift voucher tau...
besh kan!!!
den we went to marina square pizza hut..
the two "usual latecomers" jan n lydia..
haven even arrived yet...!!!
but nvm.. we took our time..
discussing wat we want to order...
even after ordering.. dey still haven cum!! ayoh..
n oh i totallie forget..
we were busy preparing the cake..
the manager came to us.. n asked whether we want them to keep the cake fer us..
n wen the bdae gurl arrived..
dey would play a bdae song.. n bring out the cake...
we agreed!!!
n as soon as the bdae gurl get seated...
the sweetest bdae song.. which i've never heard before...
played in the bekground..
n simultaneously.. the staff der..
brought a cake wid already lighted candles...
it was so damn suweet...
i feel like crying.. haha... so suweet!!!

lydia.. the bdae gurl..

the three person hu is so precious in my life...

we ate so so much!!!
so much variety of food to choose...
before i enter the restaurant my tummy was quite flat...
but wen i step out.
i was so damn bloated!!!

the spaghetti was yummy!!!

tis one is delicious!!

the pizza was unbelievable

nicekn!!!

hehe.. after so much eating..
kak su wanted to meet he beloved darling... abg amat!!!
n the four of us.. proceed to esplanade..
its been a long time since we went der n tok...


n der.. jannah hev a bangladeshi admirer!!!
he even became a stalker..
he followed us until the mrt station der..
actualie.. after dat outing..
ive got a date!!! hehe...
yeah..
hmm.. hes so sweet...
we went to dunnoe wats the name uh...
n we juz sit down n tok til 11pm....
n send me home..
i had fun.. n 2 summarise the dae...
i realie had an enjoyable dae... ;)

updated!!!

its been weeks since i update dis blog..
its not dat i dun wana blog anymore..
its juz dat im juz too lethargic..
to juz sit down infront of the comp..
n type wateva im thinking rite den..
ok.. lets divide wat i wana sae into parts...

1)werk...
occupies my daes..
weeks.. or even mths..
as i told u guys b4..
ive been heving my attchment..
n werking every single dae..
its so damn tiring!!!

wen deres an off dae fer me..
ders surely sumting i have to do..
im not whinning about my werk..
its juz dat im too tired..

ok.. let move werk aside...

2)last week..
i hev a huge family gathering..
chalet!!!
located a tanah merah..
it was a 4 daes 3 nite chalet..
i was on nite shift the dae before..
it was quite huge..
but wat i cn tell u..
its beautiful..
its a gathering to celebrate my dad.. uncle n my kuzzin bdae...
HEPI BIRTHDAE PAPA!!!

guezz wat...
me n my fellow kuzzins..
cycle all the wae from tanah merah to east coast!!!
haha.. far rite..
n had to cycle all the wae bek..
mind u.. my bicycle is a double bicycle..
n my dearest kuzzin ina.. was riding wif me..
n dat bicycle is so damn rusty dat it could juz break down in the middle of the wae..
its realie hard to control dat rusty bike..
but hey.. we managed to go all the wae to east coast!!!
at nite.. as usual..
bbq!!!!
everything seems to be so delicious..
n i gobbled almost everything into my big huge stomach!!!
n dat makes me my weight increase so much.. hmmph!!

3) juz now...
to celebrate my dearest dad bdae...
my family went to jb..
nth much to elaborate..
coz it was juz a normal outing fer us..
n guys...
plz plz remind me to buy my dad's bdae present..
i totallie ferget to buy sumting fer him..
im such a bad daughter..

4) last week...
i was on afternoon shift..
as ususal i took 67 n got down at eunos to take 15..
den i decided to kol my dearest monkey.. syahida..
coincidentallie.. shes in eunos too..
n yeah we went home togeder..
its been such a long time since we met..
n she told me so much stories... haha..
i mish dose times...

5) hmm.. i guezz sumone would wana noe abt my love life..
ok.. he's still exists in my mind..
i still think of him at times..
but i guezz..
im liking sumone..
hehe.. dun wana tell anyone!!!
ive made so much mistakes in my past...
n now.. i would be so much careful..
to fall in love.. i hope...