updated again..

i noe i noe..
its been 4eva since i blog..
im juz plain lazy uh..
wen i hev dat time to blog..
i simply juz sit in front of the comp..
n do nth... criuslly!!! haha...
i tink im too tired huh..

ok.. deres many tings dat hapen
tings dat i shld b hepi about..
n tings dat i shld nt b hepi abt...
but let me share the hepi parts wif my dearest frens...

before i forget..
1)i wana wish so veri belated bdae to kak su n abg amat...
we did make a short outing..
to sakura buffet at down town east..
was so hepi heving dose wonderful frens by my side..
even its fer awhile..
bt it mean so much fer me..
n i hope.. we'll meet soon...

2)im a FULLY REGISTERED NURSE!!!
yeay!!
much much responsibilities on my shoulder..
n dats mean..
much more money would be in my bank acc at the end of the mth..
claded in my green uniform each n everydae..
makes me tink again..
M I REALLIE A NURSE???
criusly.. im nt ready to hev dat much responsility..
wats more werking in
SPECIAL CARE NURSERY..
taking care of very sick babies...
but i hope.. i would be a succesful nurse one dae!!
n seeing those babies suffers each n everyday..
makes me cry deep down inside..
they r so so small..
n yet they hev to suffer so much..
wif heving.
kidney failure..
hole in the heart..
HIV!!
god noes how i sympathy them..
but its greatful dat they hev both
parents supporting..
n dat make dem strong to live..;)

3)im so hepi dat me n kuzzins became close..
going out togeder to jemputan...
jokes ard..
although it might so little time togeder..
im realie thankflu to hev such a wonderful kuzzins..
hu nvr failed to make me laugh!!
luv ya guys!!!

4)n not to forget frens..
hu nvr fail to gif me advise
wen im feeling down..

5)but here the sad part..
although i got everything in life..
a family hu loves n care bout me..
frens hu nvr failed to lend me their shoulder wen i nid to cry...
a bright future ahead...
everything!! its complete rite..
yet i felt dat theres something so missing..
i dun even noe wat...
almost every nite..
i cried... wif no purpose at all..
or sumtyms i do cry bcoz of those memories..
which seems to be alwaes in mind...

even after i hev everythin in life..
i still feel so alone..
as if my heart desire sumtin i cnt figure out..
as if my life is craving fer sumting so crucial..
haiz..
but to hev this positive thinking on wat i already had in life..
im contented!!!

niwae i mish my frens!!!!!!

syahida: shes the most lame person i eva met.. n yet shes adorable.. (hey dat came straight from my heart!!!) a real good fren indeed!!
jannah: this gurl is good in listening to probs!! n shes pretty!!!
lydia: the bestest fren of all.. u cn critisize her as much as u cn.. n still u cn see her smile... hehe.. dats great bout her..
nooreen, nasha and arin..
dese three gurl neva get bored of miting!! love u guys!!!

sorie...

elo again...
u guys rememba??
der was one time i told u guys dat i get to noe this
particular guy aft a huge heartbreak??
yeap..
he still contacting me..
in fact we started to go out on dates....
its not dat i had totalie forgotten abt my past...
but i try to give myself a chance to love n be loved again...
im trying real hard to move on...

but sumtymes...
tinking of my past juz makes me step bek..
ok.. this guy im dating..
lets kol him R
he is such a swit guy...
hu nvr eva failed to msg me once he wakes up to wish me a good morning...
hu nvr failed to kol me up n asked hows my day...
n nvr a single dae.. he would 4get sae I LOVE U...

dat short but so meaningful werds..
apparantly its real hard fer me to actualie say it bek to him..
i realie dunnoe wats holding me bek..
maybe its too soon..
or maybe my heart juz nid more time to heal...
only god noes..

4 now.. i do like him..
but love??
i guezz time will tell...
its not hes not good looking or wat...
hes pleasant looking...
but my heart juz not able to to accept anyone at tiz particular moment...
n at the same time..
i dun wana gif him such high hopes...
and apparently left him hanging all alone...
n i truly dun want dat to hapen to him...
cuz i definitely noes hw it feels...
i do appreciate every single ting dat he did 4 me...

n to R..
i noe u would b reading tis...
i realie hope u undastan how i feels..
i noe ive told u tis..
n u willingly sae u wana wait fer me...
n i dun wana force u to 4get me or anything..
cuz i do want to move on..
but i cnt...
gif me time... :,(


aniwae.. ders sum pixies i totalie 4get to update....
pixies i took on the last dae
on my attachment..
dey r definitely a great bunch of frens..
gona mish werking togeder wif dem..

update...

i noe i noe..
its quite sum time since i blog..
its not dat im too busy..
its not dat my comp's sick..
its juz dat im too lazy.. hehe...

i've been heving fever fer the past two daes...
migraines were totallie uncontrollable...
phlegm were gross!!!
runny nose were so damn irritating!!
i were in bed 24 hrs...
its was definitely irritating....

ok!! i hev an announcement to make!!
listen uh!!
i wana officiallie declared myself as...
BANKRUPT!!!
yeah...
its not even 25th.. n my bank acc is clean....
oh money... please come to me...

n me..
wif nth to do at home..
looking ard at old pixies in my dad cam..
n found some pixies to upload..
since ive nvr updated fer soo long..
here r sum of the pixies i found...
me n my gorgeous mum


me my dad n his boys..
dats all uh...
tata...

lydia's bdae!!

hepi belated bdae lydia!!!
yesterdae outing was so so much fun..
although it was a short outing wif kak su.. syahida.. lydia.. jannah..
but its gonna b a memorable one..

me n jan... i look fat.. i noe..

sya n me..

us again!!
me...
our slim kak su!! n me..
kak su n syahida

our plan is..
to mit everyone at city hall at 4pm..
but due to my busy schedule..
me n syahida haven bought a single thing fer my dearest lydia..
so we met at tamp mall at 1 pm..
n dat adorable syahida.. as usual.. LATE!!
i told u.. im alwaes punctual..
n met kak su first..
i get to hug kak su!! i mish her... hehe..
after walking ard n after much discussion..
we bought her presents!!!

so we headed to city hall..
went to raffles city coz kak su wana buy a gift voucher fer her..
addidas gift voucher tau...
besh kan!!!
den we went to marina square pizza hut..
the two "usual latecomers" jan n lydia..
haven even arrived yet...!!!
but nvm.. we took our time..
discussing wat we want to order...
even after ordering.. dey still haven cum!! ayoh..
n oh i totallie forget..
we were busy preparing the cake..
the manager came to us.. n asked whether we want them to keep the cake fer us..
n wen the bdae gurl arrived..
dey would play a bdae song.. n bring out the cake...
we agreed!!!
n as soon as the bdae gurl get seated...
the sweetest bdae song.. which i've never heard before...
played in the bekground..
n simultaneously.. the staff der..
brought a cake wid already lighted candles...
it was so damn suweet...
i feel like crying.. haha... so suweet!!!

lydia.. the bdae gurl..

the three person hu is so precious in my life...

we ate so so much!!!
so much variety of food to choose...
before i enter the restaurant my tummy was quite flat...
but wen i step out.
i was so damn bloated!!!

the spaghetti was yummy!!!

tis one is delicious!!

the pizza was unbelievable

nicekn!!!

hehe.. after so much eating..
kak su wanted to meet he beloved darling... abg amat!!!
n the four of us.. proceed to esplanade..
its been a long time since we went der n tok...


n der.. jannah hev a bangladeshi admirer!!!
he even became a stalker..
he followed us until the mrt station der..
actualie.. after dat outing..
ive got a date!!! hehe...
yeah..
hmm.. hes so sweet...
we went to dunnoe wats the name uh...
n we juz sit down n tok til 11pm....
n send me home..
i had fun.. n 2 summarise the dae...
i realie had an enjoyable dae... ;)