A friend is one who believes in you when you have
ceased to believe in yourself.
ryte now.. frens r realie essential in my life...
i guezz.. if im a alone ryte now..
i'll definitely in depression..
feeling so down fer the past weeks...
LOST was the ideal werd fer me...
used to depend too much on him
n now.. wen he's gone...
i realie dunnoe wat m i suppose to do...
cuz wen im wif him..
spend almost all my time wif him..
we alwaes hev sumting to do
i wasnt close wif anyone else other den him..
but.. i realie wana thank all of dearest frens n collegues
fer alwaes been der fer me...
u guys r realie the switest darlings i had...
listening to my never ending irritating problems..
its alwaes been the same story...
but u guys nvr get bored listening..
Dese r the people i realie treasure so much..
not to forget my other frens.. like wan.. kak viki..
nad.. achiok.. thnx fer ur advice..
THANKIU SOO MUCH!!!:,(
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Tertutup Sudah Pintu, Pintu Hatiku
Yang Pernah Dibuka Waktu Hanya Untukmu
Kini Kau Pergi Dari Hidupku
Kuharus Relakanmu Walau Aku Tak Mau
Berjuta Warna Pelangi Di Dalam Hati
Sejenak Luluh Bergeming Menjauh Pergi
Tak Ada Lagi Cahaya Suci
Semua Nada Beranjak Aku Terdiam Sepi
Dengarlah Matahariku, Suara Tangisanku
Kubersedih Karna Panah Cinta Menusuk Jantungku
Ucapkan Matahariku Puisi Tentang Hidupku
Tentangku Yang Tak Mampu Menaklukkan Waktu
i lurve this song so much!!! nice...:)
matahariku-agnes monica
Yang Pernah Dibuka Waktu Hanya Untukmu
Kini Kau Pergi Dari Hidupku
Kuharus Relakanmu Walau Aku Tak Mau
Berjuta Warna Pelangi Di Dalam Hati
Sejenak Luluh Bergeming Menjauh Pergi
Tak Ada Lagi Cahaya Suci
Semua Nada Beranjak Aku Terdiam Sepi
Dengarlah Matahariku, Suara Tangisanku
Kubersedih Karna Panah Cinta Menusuk Jantungku
Ucapkan Matahariku Puisi Tentang Hidupku
Tentangku Yang Tak Mampu Menaklukkan Waktu
i lurve this song so much!!! nice...:)
matahariku-agnes monica
Friday, June 27, 2008
"ma.. eqa rindu syafikla"
"sudahla.. waste of time je pikir2 pasal dier..
bkn dier sorang jantan dlm dunia nie.. dier dh tinggalkn
kau... tkkn nk terhegeh2 lagi.. move on la"
dats wat she alwaes said wen i told her i mish him...
sumtymes it hurts...
but to tink again... its truela..
he's not the onli guy i noe...
n he left me..
y muz i kip holding myself bek??
but to tink again...
ive been in n out of love many many times..
n still i experience dis kind of hearbreaks..
wen will dis eva end??!!!
im tired... veri veri tired....
all i eva wanted...
was a heving a swit bf..
hu loved me so much...
n hu cn gif me their attention...
dats all..
izzit so hard???!!!
it seems like it is... haiz
btw.. ive started werk oredi...
n everyone had been asking bout my beautiful hand...
haha...
my hand still look disgustingla..
but better...
n the other ting dat sum of my collegues kip askin...
"hw u n syafik??"
haiz.. hw i wish i cld ans..
"ooo we're bek again togeder..."
but no...
HE'S GONE...
I dun mish him, I mish hu I thought he was...
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
presence..
it definitely hurts 2 pursue a love which was nvr meant to b urs to begin wif.
i was too caught up wif dose fantasies till
i 4get to appreciate the love that was der for me all dis while.
it hurts so much 2 see him hepi loving another.
i were too busy looking into little2 mistakes he made
till he abandoned the love dat was ever ready waitin
4 me to make things happen.
to make us hepi.
i was too engrossed picking up his mistakes..
dat i dun realised he's realie trying his best to make me hepi...
til the dae he went away.. n close his doors on me...
ders a quote dat goes..
"u wun b able to appreciate the presence of dat sumone till he's gone"
nw dat i realise my mistakes.. its already too late..
dear if do cum across dis blog..
"i wana say thnkiu so much 4 teaching me lots n lots of tings bout relationship...
its not only about being sweet...
but to undastan each other needs was more impt...
i noe u sacrifice so much fer us...
u gev me many many chances to change...
but im juz so dumb to realise..
n im not mad at u 4 leaving..
cuz its part of my fault too 4 not undastandin u...
i still love u soo much... sobs sobs"
i tink its time dat i put it to a stop. accept disappointments.
i cant hev everything i wan.
i'l b hepi fo him.
im glad dat once in dis lifetime, he walked into my life.
ANIWAE!!
im bek to werk tomorow
aft on long mc..
for dose hu dunnoe...
i scalded my hand...
n now my hand look disgusting!!!
n how on earth guys would look at me... haha
hope it heals soon...
lots n lots of pple asked me...
"izzit painful??"
like duh!! imagine a whole lot of hot boiling oil on ur hand..
hw u feel uh??!!!!
but den.. i alwaes ans..
"my heart hurts much much more den my hand"
emo uh..
Forget who hurt you yesterday, But don't forget who loves you tenderly today...
memories
*in loving memories*
its almost 4 am in the morning...
n i juz came bek from miting my fwens...
its my first time aniwae..
thnk god my parents did undastan me..
dat i nid to loosen up myself n hev fun wif my fren..
but den.. even wen im outside wif frens..
he still linger in my mind..
but den.. i tried to b strong..
saying to myself..
"he dun love u animore eqa.. dun hev hopes plz.. he's not cuming bek"
it doesnt werk aniwae..
while i was bz chattin wif my fren..
i did look ard looking fer him
i dunnoe.. dats wat i usualie did wen im outside...
n wen we were abt to move off..
der it was...
the bike ive been riding on fer the past 5 mths was der...
it was him...
my heart beats realie2 fast..
maybe i juz mish him soo much...
so much of me wanting to move on...
dearest frens kips forcing me to move on..
but definitely its hard..
since we were already too comfortable togeder.. haiz..
i mish him...
You broke me, you broke my heart, you broke everything! You
turned my world upside down and inside out, BUT I know it was worth it for that one moment of love we had, it's a shame it went bad....
its almost 4 am in the morning...
n i juz came bek from miting my fwens...
its my first time aniwae..
thnk god my parents did undastan me..
dat i nid to loosen up myself n hev fun wif my fren..
but den.. even wen im outside wif frens..
he still linger in my mind..
but den.. i tried to b strong..
saying to myself..
"he dun love u animore eqa.. dun hev hopes plz.. he's not cuming bek"
it doesnt werk aniwae..
while i was bz chattin wif my fren..
i did look ard looking fer him
i dunnoe.. dats wat i usualie did wen im outside...
n wen we were abt to move off..
der it was...
the bike ive been riding on fer the past 5 mths was der...
it was him...
my heart beats realie2 fast..
maybe i juz mish him soo much...
so much of me wanting to move on...
dearest frens kips forcing me to move on..
but definitely its hard..
since we were already too comfortable togeder.. haiz..
i mish him...
You broke me, you broke my heart, you broke everything! You
turned my world upside down and inside out, BUT I know it was worth it for that one moment of love we had, it's a shame it went bad....
Saturday, June 21, 2008
love..
hw do i heal a broken heart???
i hev no idea wer to start cuz everythin i do..
reminds me of him...
it is sad isnt it?? heving sumone u realie love but u juz cnt hev him in
ur arms...
much more devastating.. wen u used to hev dat sumone hu loves u
more den anything else in the world.. but now he hates u much much more...
like i said in my previous blog..
love is realie a huge cycle..
fill wif heartbrokens n happiness..
at one point u cn b hepi... another point u cn be sad...
n of course rite now im in the sad pointla..
dats y im starting to blog now..
i noe its been ages since i blog...
but wen im hepi... i got no time to blog..
cuz most of the time would b spent wif him...
but now.. its over..
it would b such a waste of time thinking bout him...
but still i think of him every single dae...
stoopid of me uh!!
den wat to do.. its realie hard to get over sumone
i realie gev my whole heart to...
"A Million Words Would Not Bring You Back, I Know Because I've Tried. Neither Would A Million Tears, I Know Because I've Cried"
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