im lost!

i'm sooo alone..
i juz felt soo lost all the time..
wif no one to turn to weneva i nid sumone
wif no one to tok to wen im realie down...
i felt that my life wasnt at peace...
ders alwaes sumtings hurtful happen..
n all i hev to do...
iz kip it all to myself..

yeah.. frens are alwaes der,
fer me to share all my doubtful thots..
but the problem is..
they also hev deir own lives..
their own bf.. deir own families n other other stuffs..
wats more...
it would b veri irritating fer dem to listen to dese kind of problems..
over n over again...
definitely they'll get sick n tired...

if only he's still here...
he would alwaes be der fer me..
no matter how tired he is... no matter hw busy he is...
he would sacrifice his time listening to my endless sad life stories..
i realie mish dat moment of my life...

n ryte now..
even wen i cn turn to him...
i felt awkward...
to even msg him.. i realie had to tink twice...
like.. will he gets irritated?? will he ignore me??
haiz...
even after 2 mths of not being togeder...
i still mish him soo much...
even though now i dun tink bout him all the times....
but wen im all alone..
he's the onli person i eva tink of...

god.. u gev me huge huge obstacles in life...
ive tried to move on...
its hard...

all i eva nid...
was sumone to be my side... :,(