routine..

i noe...
ive been whining n whining bout my life...
its not dat i realie hate my life..
in fact.. i used to love my life so much..
but things happen..
that realie chged everything..
makes my world upside down...
ryte now.. im too lost to tink on how to turn it bek again..

my life hev been a routine..
werk n home..
if im not at home... im at werk..
n vice versa..
i dun go out like i used to...
i realie dunnoe wats happening to my life...
wen im all alone at home...
wif nth to do...
lots lots of question bombard my mind...
questions dat makes me realie realie cry..
yesh... tears had alwaes been my loyal companion...

i alwaes wanted to get thru tis..
trying real hard to be strong...
but i dunnoe y..
i kip feeling weak day by day...
the more i wanted to move on..
the more i kip thinking bek...
its not dat i didnt try at all..
i did went on dates wif sum guys..
but the feeling is so different..
even how swit dey r...
how nice dey treated me...
the feeling is so so different...
every nite...
i consistenly told myself...
forget bout everything..
every single thing...
its time to start eveything anew...
BUT ITS SO HARD!!!

one ting i tried to do to forget all dese...
i werk..
but at werk ders a diff issues..
makes me so stressed most of the time...
werk had been realie hectic nowadaes...
the no. of babies juz increased day by day...
babies can be veri veri adorable most of the time..
dose delicate fingers... dose nice smelling hair..
BUT!!
juz imagine taking 6 babies at one time...
feeding.. bathing... n eveything...
dats usual... but wen they start crying and shoutng deir lungs out!!
OMG!! GOD noes how i feel...
n werking for 13hrs is not a joke...
n at the end of the shift..
IM REALIE LETHARGIC...
people alwaes say its so easy to be a nurse...
wats more taking care of babies...
much much easier..
plz.. tink before u said dat again... cuz it irritates me alot!!
aside from babies...
people der also makes a huge diff...
if i happen 2 werk wif sumone nice..
i dun feel so irritated...
to make my story short..
you juz cnt stop people from talking...
HIPOCRITS ARE EVERYWER...
SO BEWARE!!...

now.. tell me..
wat should i do??
find a new bf?? not now...
find things to do to occupy my mind?? wat ting?? i get bored easily...
go out?? wer to??

PLZ TELL ME!!!