juz fer u

fer my dearest.....(IF U HAPPEN TO READ MY BLOG)


rite now..
im still in denial..
i definitely noe dat
u've already moved on
way bek den..
but i nvr did...
NEVER.. NOT EVEN A LIL BIT...
u hev ur new happiness in ur life..
n im still here in darkness...

our pictures r still on my table...
n weneva i start to gaze on that pictures
dose swit precious memories we had togeder,
kip flashing bek at the bek of my mind..
it was so beautiful..
wifout me noeing..
tears juz kip on flowing down my cheeks..
n dats wen i realised...
u meant too much to me...
n dats wen i noe..
dat i love u way too much...

i mish u so much dear..
everything abt u..
the wae u wld kish me on my forehead weneva we're saying goodbye..
the wae u would kish my hand wen we're riding...
dose times wen u would kol me in the middle of dae.. juz to sae dat u love me..
n dose times u would make me laugh n smile juz by being urself...
haiz... i want dose times to cum bek to me..
n make me whole again..

the past few daes...
u msged me every single dae..
GOD noes how hepi i m...
i was alwaes waiting patiencely fer ur msg everydae...
even a short msg makes me smile dear..
n yest..
u came to my werkplace to bring me food..
i almost wanted to cry..
i was too contented..
i almost wanted to hug u so tite n nvr let u go..
but.. i had to refrain myself from doing dat...
cuz u're no longer mine...

im not gona beg u to cum bek..
neither im gonna pester u...
n im not asking fer any sympathy from anyone..
but i juz want u to noe..
how much u realie meant to me...
how badly i want u bek in my life...

although heving u bek in my life..
iz sumting i shldnt b thinking of rite now..
cuz its totalie "in my dreams" thingy...

BUT i hope..
one fine day...
u would realise it..
n trust me..
i had never stop praying fer u to cum bek... :,(